Category Archives: music

Feeling invisible at an Incognito show…

Posted on April 6, 2024 by jamilah

(Content acknowledgement: Throughout this post there will be mention of suicide and depression.) Leaving New York City and approaching the Lincoln Tunnel, there is a large mural with the old adage, “Nothing Is Impossible.” As i stared into the slight … Continue reading →

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Coming to terms with the realities of punk…

Posted on February 20, 2024 by jamilah

Hey youIs there something worth aspiring toAnd can it be found in a record storeWell it’s not there anymore Hey youIs there something worth belonging toAnd can I pick it up for a songOr a diploma or a worthy causeWell … Continue reading →

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St. Louis Joys, and St. Louis Blues

Posted on November 10, 2023 by jamilah

The ‘post-show blues’ is a common thing people get, after seeing a show from a beloved artist. The blues i encounter has nothing to do with the show itself; it has everything to do with returning to the cycle of … Continue reading →

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The Sentimentality of ’20 Years Of Anger’

Posted on September 9, 2023 by jamilah

Anyone who’s read any of my writings up to this point most likely know how i feel about the Metallica album St. Anger– in the case you are not aware, here is a film i did. In short, St. Anger … Continue reading →

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i met the band who saved my life.

Posted on August 11, 2023 by jamilah

(Note: This piece makes mention of suicide and mental health struggles) i struggled around whether or not i was going to write (or do a podcast) about this. i struggled because i don’t want the experience misconstrued as one simply … Continue reading →

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The Transition of Sinéad O’Connor, Amid ‘Dangerous Days’

Posted on July 31, 2023 by jamilah

(Note: This post discusses abuse, suicide, rape and mental health struggles) The day after learning of the passing of Shuhada’ Sadaqat (also named Magda Davitt, but best known as Sinéad O’Connor), i had a mental health breakdown of inescapable intrusive … Continue reading →

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’72 Seasons’ And The Tears Of Realization

Posted on March 31, 2023 by jamilah

i am sitting here crying. During these late hours (when the inspiration to write and create tends to happen the most) i began to cry, as i make attempts to get into bed. It has been waiting to come out … Continue reading →

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The Devastating Brilliance Of ‘All Within My Hands’

Posted on February 24, 2023 by jamilah

People who know my musical tastes well enough know at this point that i consider Metallica’s St. Anger to be one of my top ten favorite albums of all time; in fact, i made a documentary charting my love for … Continue reading →

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The Gift Of James Hetfield’s Speech

Posted on May 19, 2022 by jamilah

A lot of speculation has occurred in relation to James Hetfield publicly addressing his anxieties and insecurities, while in Belo Horizonte, Brazil (at Estádio do Mineirão). He mentioned that he “wasn’t feeling very good” before coming out on stage, adding … Continue reading →

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Through Rainbow Insides: The Spiritual Gifts Of Metallica’s 40th Solar Return

Posted on December 23, 2021 by jamilah

(Warning: The following content includes mention and/or descriptions of abuse, suicide and depression.  To get more details about the shows, go here: https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-rbc7t-1160ce8) December 22, 2021. John Coltrane.  Psalm. These are the only words i can think of, if one … Continue reading →

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