Category Archives: childhood

More reflections on ‘Searching For Neverland’

Posted on May 31, 2017 by jamilah

i made the above video, documenting my initial feelings around the creation of this docu-drama based on teacher Michael’s life.  While my feelings have not changed (i still refuse to see it), after i made the video i began to … Continue reading →

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michael, peace will come, no matter what: a reflection (no. 8)

Posted on February 15, 2012 by jamilah

“so goodbye, please don’t cry…” and cry is what i’ve been doing for the past few days.  i continue to think about all the people who brought joy to so many, and how their voices were silenced.  there’s so much … Continue reading →

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michael, peace will come, no matter what: a reflection (no. 1)

Posted on December 18, 2011 by jamilah

i get it.  i finally get it.  i…  FINALLY.  GET.  IT. i’ve never even SEEN peter pan. but i get it. it began the day i met beth, and i mentioned my love and respect for you.  beth tried to … Continue reading →

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michael, may you now be at peace: a reflection (no. 107)

Posted on December 17, 2011 by jamilah

okay… there are two different things going on.  i feel like the title of these blog entries just don’t make sense anymore, because as long as certain people close to you are still here on this earth you will never … Continue reading →

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michael, may you now be at peace: a reflection (no. 106)

Posted on December 7, 2011 by jamilah

“Being able to say that one is a survivor is an accomplishment. For many, the power is in the name itself. And yet comes a time in the individuation process when the threat or trauma is significantly past. Then is … Continue reading →

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michael, may you now be at peace: a reflection (no. 105)

Posted on December 1, 2011 by jamilah

i’m sure you know by now.  murray got sentenced to four years. i really don’t know what to say, that i haven’t already said. frankly, i’m tired of re-living 25 june 2009.  or i should say, i’m tired of people … Continue reading →

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michael, may you now be at peace: a reflection (no. 103)

Posted on November 28, 2011 by jamilah

the other day, little abe (the one who gave me the framed poster of the ‘bad’ cover) asked me, with his wide eyes, if i knew you were dead.  how he asked me was between curiosity and assurance.  as he … Continue reading →

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michael, may you now be at peace: a reflection (no. 102)

Posted on November 18, 2011 by jamilah

the ‘visitor’ has returned, slightly…  i don’t know WHY she has returned, exactly, or what triggered her to return.  i’m not particularly depressed about any specific thing…  no, she’s not close enough for me to DO anything, but she’s there. … Continue reading →

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michael, may you now be at peace: a reflection (no. 99)

Posted on November 3, 2011 by jamilah

in the midst of all these people who say they love you, i feel like an outsider.  just so we are once again clear; i’m not willing to fight over the semantics of the names bestowed on you by media; … Continue reading →

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michael, may you now be at peace: a reflection (no. 98)

Posted on November 2, 2011 by jamilah

you are free from so much…  or are you? today is dia de los muertos- the day of the dead, and still, everything seems unreal right now.  i suppose only the body leaves this earth, and one’s spirit or memory … Continue reading →

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